i have never imagined myself
turning to some studious girl.
studying was never my thing.
in secondary school i've always
pushed studying to the last of my
piriorities.
i thought poly would be less stressful
as compared to JC but how wrong i
was.i dont think my course is any
easier to cope as compared to JC.
most people are having e-learning week.
which means 1-2 weeks off school and
what do i get? 2hours off lesson from school
last week cause only a minor module has
e-learning.
people only have common tests,i have a truck
load of quiz and all that shit with a commiss
class that has a presentation/test every single
week of which all has weightage in your module
mark.which means every piece of work you hand
in has to be done whole heartedly.
i've never been someone who'd succumb to stress
that easily cause there's always a playful streak in
me that makes me want to do something to relieve
my stress by playing my entire day away which i dont
plan to get rid off.but poly life is literally draining me bit
by bit,every single day.stress just builts up.
i understand that my course is harder than most
other courses cause we've got alot to cover.but
i really really dint expect APS to be this tough.
im really really hating all the terms.the terms i see
now are like found in encyclopedias/reference books
but now for me its like an everyday affair.
i slept during APS today cause i was really really extremely
tired..and the lecturer goes kinda fast and i have alot to
catch up on now.
crying over results is not something i'd do in the past
cause i've always felt that it alright since i knew it
myself i dint give it my all.the one and only time was
for social studies o lvls and im nearly close to tears
with all the shit test results.first was math and now info.
my target is not a PASS. a pass cannot get me anywhere
near where i want to get.
how? god can you help me find a way out?
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